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It's all right, mother. It's almost over. I'm close. So very close. How long have we struggled? How long have we waited? Too long, I know. But it's almost over. I promise.<br>
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mommy mommy as you lie the dark man comes and makes you die my daddy's hands are red with guilt because he killed the life we built<br>
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I hate it! All this lying, all this pretending! Sithis and the Five Tenets be damned! How long do I have to live by their rules? How long before I get my chance? I saw Lucien Lachance yesterday. He was in the Sanctuary talking with Ocheeva. He was right there! So close I could have severed his spine in less than a heartbeat! Oh Mother, never before have I had to exercise such self-control. What's sickeningly ironic is that it was the Dark Brotherhood's discipline that allowed me to restrain myself. I've been a part of their "family" for so long it's a part of me, whether I like it or not. And in all that time I've fooled them all. They see me as a fellow member of the Brother, a trusted family member. Some day soon I will learn the truth about the Night Mother, and when I do, I will use that trust to get close to her. Close enough so that I may rend the head from her body, just as Lucien Lachance did to you so long ago!<br>
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Damn it, mother! Why did it have to be this way? Maria was so beautiful. She was perfect in so many ways. Why couldn't she handle the truth? Why couldn't she realize her "family" didn't really love her? She was a murderer like the rest of us. Paid to kill in the name of Sithis. I really thought we could be together. Make a real family, with real love. But she told me she could never accept your place in my life. So now she's gone. She didn't deserve to live after the horrible things she said about you. I never should have told her, I know. I'm so sorry. It will never happen again, and the others will never find her, don't worry. There's nothing left of her to find.<br>
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IliketolieinthegrassandwatchtheantsandwishIwereoneofthemintheirundergoundmazesosafefromthedarknessofpeoplehorriblepeopleIwillkillthemallkilltheantskillthepeoplekilleverything<br>
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I did it, mother! I killed them all! I killed them and I cursed them to wander their ship in undeath for all eternity! They came to talk to the old man in the lighthouse. When they saw me, they could have kept walking. But no. They laughed! They laughed at me, mother! They called me names! They said I was strange, that I was a human rat, living here in the cellar of the lighthouse. They did not know who they were dealing with! So I snuck on board, later that night, and I slit their throats. Every last one of them. So there the Serpent's Wake sits. The ghost ship of Anvil they'll call it now! Ha ha ha ha ha!<br>
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Some wonderful news, mother! Advancement at last! Lucien Lachance paid a visit to the Sanctuary today, to talk with me! He told me the Black Hand needed my services. One of the other Speakers is looking to replace his assistant, who was killed fulfilling a contract. So Lucien Lachance suggested me! I met with the Speaker, and will serve as his new "Silencer." Ha! Lachance might as well have given me a contract to kill the Night Mother herself! I am now one step closer to realizing our dream. I will learn the Night Mother's identity and tear the heart from her chest. Oh yes, and I have something special planned for Lachance himself...<br>
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mommy I so afrade. i mis yu mommy. i just wantyu to kis me agenn<br>
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father prayed and guess who came the hooded man in Sithis' name who left but then he came once more to pass through window wall and door I lie in fear my mouth agape as wicked blade did cleave your nape for I was watching 'neath the bed to see the falling of your head and when your face lie on the floor our loving eyes did meet once more and so I pledged to you that day the Brotherhood would dearly pay and just as they took me from you I'd find and kill their mother too but there's someplace I need to start and that's with father's beating heart and when that's done I'll sing and dance to celebrate a dead LaChance<br>
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I've been careless! Too careless. The bodies, the burnings. Killing that fool Blanchard was the worst mistake I've made so far. I was seen! I was cloaked and hooded, and escaped into shadow, so no one learned my true identity. But now the Black Hand is suspicious. They suspect treachery, suspect a traitor! I must be more cautious than ever.<br>
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when in the snow I like to lie and fold my arms and wait to die<br>
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I've been switching them! Switching the dead drops! It was so easy! I tracked Lachance from his lair at Fort Farragut to the first dead drop location. After Lachance placed the orders, when I was sure he was gone, I switched them! It was so easy. Now Lachance's fool Silencer is working for us, mother! Oh, the fun we'll have. One of the Black Hand told me they haven't seen such an ambitious family member since I first joined the Dark Brotherhood. I will use that very ambition to my own advantage. The fool will never question the dead drops, and as I write this is en route to the first target -- one of the very members of the Black Hand! And so it begins. Lachance's silencer will kill one high ranking Brother member, then another, then another, and so on, until the entire family implodes. Eventually, as is the custom, the survivors will consult the Night Mother and seek her guidance. When that day comes, I will be there, ready to punge a blade into that dark whore's fetid heart!<br>
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母さん、大丈夫だよ。もうすぐ終わるんだ。もう少しで。本当に終わりに近づいてる。どれだけ長く苦しんだだろう？どれだけ待ち続けただろう？長すぎた、よね？でももう終わるんだ。約束するよ。<br>
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ヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロスヤツヲコロス<br>
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ママ、ママが寝ているところに闇の男がきてママを殺したパパの手は真っ赤でぼくらの人生を殺した罪に染まってる<br>
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だいっきらいだ！嘘と見せかけばかり！Sithisも五教義もくそくらえ！奴らのルールにいつまで従わないといけないんだ？いつ機会が訪れる？昨日Lucien_Lachanceを見た。SanctuaryでOcheevaと話してたんだ。奴がそこにいたんだよ！心臓が打つ前に背骨を切り裂けるくらい近くにさ！ああ、母さん、今までそんなに自分を抑えなきゃいけないことはなかったよ。Dark_Brotherhoodの掟のせいで自分を抑えなきゃいけないなんて本当に皮肉だ。奴らの「家族」にずっといたからもう身に染みてるんだ、嫌でもね。ずっと奴らを騙してきた。奴らは僕がBrotherの一員で、信頼された家族だと思ってる。遠くないうちにNight_Motherについての本当のことを知れるだろうし、そうしたら、信頼を受けて近づいてみせる。そう、近づいて頭を体から切り離す、ずっとずっと前にLucien_Lachanceが母さんにしたのと同じように！<br>
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畜生！母さん、なんでこうなってしまうんだろう？Mariaは本当にきれいだった。完璧だったんだ。なぜ真実に耐えられなかったのかな？なぜ「家族」に愛されてないことを受け入れられなかったんだろう？彼女も僕らと同じ殺人者だった。Sithisの名において殺しをしてた。一緒になれるとおもったのに。本当の愛、本当の家族をつくれたのに。でも彼女は僕の中の母さんを否定したんだ！もう彼女はいない。そんなひどいことを母さんに言うやつは生きる資格もないからね。母さんのこと言うべきじゃなかったのかもしれない、ごめんなさい。こんなことは二度としないし、心配しないで、誰も彼女を見つけることはできないから。彼女の痕跡は何も残ってないよ。<br>
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クサノウエニヨコニナッテアリヲミタアリニナッテチカノメイキュウニイキタイオソロシイニンゲンノクラヤミカラノガレタイヤツラヲミンナコロスアリヲコロスヒトヲコロススベテヲコロス<br>
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やったよ、母さん！みんな殺したよ！奴ら全員を殺して、アンデッドとして永久に船で彷徨うように呪いをかけてやったんだ！奴らは灯台の老人に話に来てた。僕を見たときに、そのまま歩き去ることもできただろうに。でもね、奴らはそうしなかった。僕をあざけったんだ！僕をあざ笑ったんだよ、母さん！奴らは僕に変なあだ名を付けて笑った！僕は奇妙に、灯台の地下室に住む人間鼠だって。誰を相手にしてるかわからなかったようだね！だから、その日の夜遅くに僕は甲板に忍び込んで、喉を切り裂いてやった。1人残らず。そう、だからSerpent's_Wakeはああなった。Anvilの幽霊船だ、なんて今ではみんな言ってるよ！あはははははははははは！<br>
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素晴らしいニュースがあるんだ、母さん！とうとう昇進したよ！Lucien_Lachanceが今日Sanctuaryにやってきた、僕と話すために！Black_Handには僕が必要らしい。他のSpeakerが、任務で死んだ部下の代わりを探してるんだって。そこでLucien_Lachanceは僕を推薦したんだ！そのSpeakerと話して、僕は彼の"Silencer"になった。はは！LachanceはNight_Mother自身を殺す依頼をしたも同然だ。というわけで僕は夢にまた一歩近づいた。Night_Motherが誰であるか見つけて、胸から心臓を抜き出してやる。ああ、そうだ、僕はLachanceにも特別な計画を用意したんだよ……<br>
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まま、ぼくはこわいんだ。さみしいよ。ぼくにまたキスしてよ<br>
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パパの祈りで来たのはだれだとおもう？Sithisの名をかたるフードの男が来て立ち去って今度は窓や壁やドアを通り抜けてはいってきた僕は横になって怖くて口も開けたままみてたママの首筋に刃が切り込むのを僕はベッドの下で見てたママの首が床に落ちて大好きなママと目が合って僕は誓ったBrotherhoodも僕と同じ目にあわせてやる奴らの母さんを見つけて殺すでもまずしなきゃいけないことがあるパパの心臓はまだ動いてるそれがおわったらLaChanceの死を歌って踊って祝おう<br>
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みどりあお赤きいろだいだいみどりあお赤きいろだいだいみどりあお赤きいろだいだいみどりあお赤きいろだいだいみどりあお赤きいろだいだいみどりあお赤きいろだいだいみどりあお赤きいろだいだいみどりあお黒黒黒黒黒黒！！！！！！<br>
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僕は不注意だった！軽率すぎる！死体に、炎。Blanchardの馬鹿を殺したのが最大の間違いだ。見られてしまった！外套とフードを着ていて、闇に逃げたから、誰も僕とはわかっていない。でもBlack_Handは疑いを持っている。裏切り、裏切り者がいると疑ってる！もっと用心深くしなければ。<br>
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すり替えをやってるんだ！指令のすり替えを！本当に簡単だ！Lachanceを棲家のFort_Farragutから尾行して最初の指令の置き場所に行った。Lachanceが指令を置いて、いなくなったのを確かめてから、指令をすり替えた！なんて簡単なんだ。これでLachanceのおばかさんなSilencerは僕と母さんのために仕事をしてくれてる！あはは、楽しいね。Black_Handの誰かがあれほどの野心家は僕以来だって言ってたよ。その野心を利用するんだ。奴は指令に疑問も持たないで、今ごろは最初のターゲットのところに行く途中だ――そうBlack_Handの一員のところにね！これからあのLachanceのSilencerは組織の高位の連中を殺して、殺して、また殺して行く、組織が崩壊するまで。やがて、生き残りはNight_Motherの指示を仰ぐだろう。その日には、僕もそこにいる。闇のあばずれ女の悪臭のする心臓に刃をぶちこむために！<br>
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